Convalescence
As expected, I am still struggling with my health after our long journey to and from San Antonio. What we didn't expect is for Sheila to be joining me this week!
Sheila is home sick with a lousy cold... mostly sore throat, runny nose, stuffy head... and, some fatigue as well.
I'm still struggling with overwhelming fatigue, debilitating deep bone pain, and bouts with instantaneous dizziness so bad it knocks me over even when I am seated! This dizziness is actually a bit violent...
Even when this dizziness hits me while seated, in an instant, I am trying to catch myself from hitting the floor. When I am standing, I stumble like my world has been instantly tilted to a 45 degree angle trying to grab ahold of something to keep me from losing to gravity.... gravity applying force in a very different direction from which my brain thinks.
What is really odd is that I am constantly falling to my right. In the past, I always fell to the left when these bouts would hit me. This time I find myself consistently falling to the right. Either way, this hits so instantly and so severely that I would liken it to trying to stay standing through a violent earthquake while your world is spinning at the same time.
The overwhelming fatigue is brutal and extremely oppressing but the worst symptom I am struggling with this week is bone pain. This is still a symptom I have difficulty accurately describing. The pain is a burning, aching, yet sometimes stabbing pain deep in my bones and joints... just touching a finger to my bones (for instance, a rib or a shin) is excruciating. Rubbing across a long bone hurts and feels good at the same time. It is a very odd sensation... so odd, in fact, that the contrast between bones hurting and muscles feeling good with light massage is enough to bring tears to my eyes... it is a conflict of feeling and emotions.
Anyway... both of us have been camped out in the living room on the couch during this time of convalescence...
Sheila is home sick with a lousy cold... mostly sore throat, runny nose, stuffy head... and, some fatigue as well.
I'm still struggling with overwhelming fatigue, debilitating deep bone pain, and bouts with instantaneous dizziness so bad it knocks me over even when I am seated! This dizziness is actually a bit violent...
Even when this dizziness hits me while seated, in an instant, I am trying to catch myself from hitting the floor. When I am standing, I stumble like my world has been instantly tilted to a 45 degree angle trying to grab ahold of something to keep me from losing to gravity.... gravity applying force in a very different direction from which my brain thinks.
What is really odd is that I am constantly falling to my right. In the past, I always fell to the left when these bouts would hit me. This time I find myself consistently falling to the right. Either way, this hits so instantly and so severely that I would liken it to trying to stay standing through a violent earthquake while your world is spinning at the same time.
The overwhelming fatigue is brutal and extremely oppressing but the worst symptom I am struggling with this week is bone pain. This is still a symptom I have difficulty accurately describing. The pain is a burning, aching, yet sometimes stabbing pain deep in my bones and joints... just touching a finger to my bones (for instance, a rib or a shin) is excruciating. Rubbing across a long bone hurts and feels good at the same time. It is a very odd sensation... so odd, in fact, that the contrast between bones hurting and muscles feeling good with light massage is enough to bring tears to my eyes... it is a conflict of feeling and emotions.
Anyway... both of us have been camped out in the living room on the couch during this time of convalescence...
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