Scattered Thoughts . . .

Although it completely disgusts me, last night was a night filled with fireworks all around our home... up on that hill...  then over the other direction... fireworks all around me made for an absolutely terrible night's sleep.  My visions and 'dreams' placed me in other places I preferred not to be... the sounds put me there and kept me there all night. I couldn't relax... I couldn't sleep... I felt I shouldn't be in bed under these circumstances.   I know my internal clock is all screwed up anyway after having a nonexistent winter but is it already July 4th??? Since when are fireworks a weekend-before-Memorial Day-weekend event?  Even if it were Memorial Day weekend, I'm still thinking fireworks are not appropriate.  Personally, I despise fireworks... my heart is pounding now just thinking of hearing them... and, if I smell them too, I get lost in a far away place in a far away time... in these times, I am not in the present with the people around

We had a very busy Saturday... first, we went to lunch for a little 'going-away' meal with Adam... then we headed to the airport to say goodbye to Adam (I'll write about this another time and add some photos)... then we went to a really nice Independence Day party at Tom and Karen's house. By the time we were heading to the party, I was exhausted and my health was teetering on being quite lousy. My health has been bordering on poor since a little incident at the lake that simply took far too much out of me and I'm still trying to recover. Fortunately, I was loaded up on extra medications throughout the time at the lake house and even more so once my health deteriorated so I am in much better shape than had I not pre-medicated.   When we arrived at Tom and Karen's on Saturday evening, I planted my exhausted mind and body in a chair and stayed there. Even socializing required more energy than I had that night.  Sheila and I just sat and enjoyed the company