Scattered Thoughts . . .

The past few days, Sunday through Tuesday, have been spent recovering from a busy day over the weekend.  Whenever I use a lot of energy, my health really suffers and it can take days or weeks to recover. This past Saturday was a very busy day for me and I used a lot of energy which was compounded by missing my much-needed daily nap. Even on a good day, I need to lay down for a few hours every afternoon. That never happened on Saturday though. So... what happens if I wear myself down? The best case scenario would be that I am simply fatigued at an overwhelming level for a few days. This fatigue makes just showering or cooking for myself impossible at times. Sometimes the fatigue gets so bad that walking to the other side of the house is a daunting task. Even reading can require more energy than I have to use! Worst case scenario would be that in addition to the overwhelming fatigue, my overall health suffers significantly resulting in breathing difficulties, dizziness, cognitive d

The kids visited us a couple of weeks ago and, as always, we had a nice time. We're overdue for a visit with them again but the house has been a dangerous construction zone the past couple of weeks. Grammy read them a book and then they started watching "Nemo" ... It didn't take long before they were both snoozing and drooling on the couch. Once they fell asleep, I grabbed my camera to get a few shots of the sun falling on their faces during their naps...

Ever since this systemic mastocytosis illness has taken ahold of my body (read death grip), I have struggled with overwhelming fatigue. Overwhelming fatigue... First, I think I need to explain what qualifies as overwhelming fatigue.  This is fatigue which is so severe that it affects my ability to think clearly and make simple decisions...  It is a fatigue so severe that it is difficult to mindlessly hold something lightweight such as a book or magazine or my Kindle Fire tablet long enough to even begin the task of reading...  It is a fatigue which makes reading comprehension frustratingly impossible...  It is a fatigue so severe that my legs feel like mushy goo making walking short distances difficult to impossible...  It is fatigue so severe that I could fall asleep within mere seconds at any moment, even while standing, and then sleep for a solid 4-12 hours...  It is a fatigue which is so severe that it makes my normal triggers (for systemic mastocytosis episodes) beco