Feeling Lousy... but... Not Sure What Is Feeling Lousy
Every now and then, I wake up feeling kind of lousy... out of sorts... almost like something bad is about the happen.
This should come as no big surprise though since, quite often, I don't realize how much pain I am in until Sheila rubs a part of my body and it screams back at me! For instance, sometimes as Sheila is passing by me, she'll reach out and lightly rub my leg... it feels good on my muscles but it will also feel like someone is pushing on a broken bone. My bones often hurt terribly but it doesn't really register in my mind until they are touched. Even the lightest touch will hurt terribly on my bones yet feel great on my muscles. Now, that is an odd sensation!
I think the same holds true for my spinal injuries. It is sort of like my mind blocks out the pain to some degree... or, perhaps I have found a way to ignore it fairly well... I don't know. Maybe it is a combination of both. What I do know is that my mind somehow blocks out the bulk of pain but I do feel other associated symptoms such as nausea, weakness, fatigue, lethargy and almost a listlessness.
Anyway... I awoke this morning feeling this way... out of sorts and I kind of have a feeling of impending doom. I don't know if my health is about to fail or if something is bothering me emotionally or if I'm experiencing some pain that is simply not registering in my brain.
Overall, I'm feeling kind of lousy...
This should come as no big surprise though since, quite often, I don't realize how much pain I am in until Sheila rubs a part of my body and it screams back at me! For instance, sometimes as Sheila is passing by me, she'll reach out and lightly rub my leg... it feels good on my muscles but it will also feel like someone is pushing on a broken bone. My bones often hurt terribly but it doesn't really register in my mind until they are touched. Even the lightest touch will hurt terribly on my bones yet feel great on my muscles. Now, that is an odd sensation!
I think the same holds true for my spinal injuries. It is sort of like my mind blocks out the pain to some degree... or, perhaps I have found a way to ignore it fairly well... I don't know. Maybe it is a combination of both. What I do know is that my mind somehow blocks out the bulk of pain but I do feel other associated symptoms such as nausea, weakness, fatigue, lethargy and almost a listlessness.
Anyway... I awoke this morning feeling this way... out of sorts and I kind of have a feeling of impending doom. I don't know if my health is about to fail or if something is bothering me emotionally or if I'm experiencing some pain that is simply not registering in my brain.
Overall, I'm feeling kind of lousy...
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