Brutal Spinal Problems
I've been in significant pain since Saturday. I can't seem to find any position for relief either.
Sitting hurts, standing hurts, laying down hurts... anti-inflammatory medications don't seem to do anything... icing it seems to be more of a bother than a benefit. I can't sleep. At rest, the pain is in the 7-8 range on the 10 point pain scale... which is quite brutal and relentless.
This latest problem is with my lumbar spine... it feels as though someone pounded a railroad spike into my spine. The pain radiates through my pelvis on the left side... into my left hip... down through my groin and down my thigh to my knee. I get occasional twinges of intense pain in my left foot too whenever I move or turn the wrong way. This pain has been recurring since my first line-of-duty spinal injury almost 20 years ago.
Whenever my spinal pain gets bad, it brings back a lot of bad memories related to the time period of when I first injured my spine. These events replay in my head, over and over... and I get angry and angrier at how poorly the Air Force and DoD handled these injuries... and especially, I get even angrier at many of those who were working with me at the time whom were ignorant dolts. To say I was treated poorly by far too many is a gross understatement. (Of course, there are those who did indeed treat me well, who believed me about these injuries and who stood by me but these understanding and caring people were few and far between and do not even compare to the number of morons who made my life even more miserable than my injuries ever could.)
Needless to say, all this pain and all these miserable memories also affects my emotions and demeanor in the present.
The pain is brutal and I need some relief, some rest, and some sleep.
Now it is time for my daily physical therapy in an attempt to find some relief if even for only a few brief moments... then I can apply more pain management techniques...
Sitting hurts, standing hurts, laying down hurts... anti-inflammatory medications don't seem to do anything... icing it seems to be more of a bother than a benefit. I can't sleep. At rest, the pain is in the 7-8 range on the 10 point pain scale... which is quite brutal and relentless.
This latest problem is with my lumbar spine... it feels as though someone pounded a railroad spike into my spine. The pain radiates through my pelvis on the left side... into my left hip... down through my groin and down my thigh to my knee. I get occasional twinges of intense pain in my left foot too whenever I move or turn the wrong way. This pain has been recurring since my first line-of-duty spinal injury almost 20 years ago.
Whenever my spinal pain gets bad, it brings back a lot of bad memories related to the time period of when I first injured my spine. These events replay in my head, over and over... and I get angry and angrier at how poorly the Air Force and DoD handled these injuries... and especially, I get even angrier at many of those who were working with me at the time whom were ignorant dolts. To say I was treated poorly by far too many is a gross understatement. (Of course, there are those who did indeed treat me well, who believed me about these injuries and who stood by me but these understanding and caring people were few and far between and do not even compare to the number of morons who made my life even more miserable than my injuries ever could.)
Needless to say, all this pain and all these miserable memories also affects my emotions and demeanor in the present.
The pain is brutal and I need some relief, some rest, and some sleep.
Now it is time for my daily physical therapy in an attempt to find some relief if even for only a few brief moments... then I can apply more pain management techniques...
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