This Week Becomes Brutal
This has been a very looonnnnnnggggggg week. I feel as though two weeks have passed in the span of this past week!
My health has been quite lousy all week but last night it turned to a rather brutal and painful stage. Of course, pain is always present, even on relatively good days, but there are far too many periods of worsened pain. This is one of those times.
Whenever my mast cells pick some area of my body to "attack" due to Systemic Mastocytosis, they degranulate and release many mediators. These mediators cause all sorts of problems in varying combinations... anaphylaxis, hindering effective bodily function, breathing difficulty, nausea, lightheadedness, dizziness, difficulty with neurological systems, skin rashes, flushing, hives, itching, etc... and some of these mediators cause nerves to inflame and become very irritated which causes even more pain at a brutal level. So, each time I have a mass degranulation of mast cells as they indiscriminately attack a particular area of my body, it inflames the nerves surrounding that area... as well as causing problems associated with that area of the body.
For the past 24 hours, I've been sick as a dog and spending far too much time in the bathroom. The pain and time in the bathroom severely cuts into my sleep which, in turn, also causes my health to deteriorate even further.
Once again, I don't trust my body enough to wander more than a matter of feet from the bathroom. If you've never truly lost faith in your own body, believe me, losing faith in your own body is a very bad thing and it affects every aspect of your life. When you lose faith in your own body, it affects how you view everything in life and it takes quite a long time to regain this faith, as is the case with anything else in which you may lose faith. But... losing faith in your own body... that is as brutal as the pain.
Sometime when I am thinking more clearly, I should attempt to write about this loss of faith. I'm definitely not thinking clearly enough right now to effectively describe it.
The main point of this blog entry is simply to say it's been a very long week and my health has slipped into the 'brutal' category.
My health has been quite lousy all week but last night it turned to a rather brutal and painful stage. Of course, pain is always present, even on relatively good days, but there are far too many periods of worsened pain. This is one of those times.
Whenever my mast cells pick some area of my body to "attack" due to Systemic Mastocytosis, they degranulate and release many mediators. These mediators cause all sorts of problems in varying combinations... anaphylaxis, hindering effective bodily function, breathing difficulty, nausea, lightheadedness, dizziness, difficulty with neurological systems, skin rashes, flushing, hives, itching, etc... and some of these mediators cause nerves to inflame and become very irritated which causes even more pain at a brutal level. So, each time I have a mass degranulation of mast cells as they indiscriminately attack a particular area of my body, it inflames the nerves surrounding that area... as well as causing problems associated with that area of the body.
For the past 24 hours, I've been sick as a dog and spending far too much time in the bathroom. The pain and time in the bathroom severely cuts into my sleep which, in turn, also causes my health to deteriorate even further.
Once again, I don't trust my body enough to wander more than a matter of feet from the bathroom. If you've never truly lost faith in your own body, believe me, losing faith in your own body is a very bad thing and it affects every aspect of your life. When you lose faith in your own body, it affects how you view everything in life and it takes quite a long time to regain this faith, as is the case with anything else in which you may lose faith. But... losing faith in your own body... that is as brutal as the pain.
Sometime when I am thinking more clearly, I should attempt to write about this loss of faith. I'm definitely not thinking clearly enough right now to effectively describe it.
The main point of this blog entry is simply to say it's been a very long week and my health has slipped into the 'brutal' category.
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