Scattered Thoughts . . .

Doing any sort of work on any of my model railroad models is just about impossible nowadays without getting some sort of help. I can no longer focus on anything up close even when wearing my progressive lens eyeglasses.  A week ago, I was working on my largest locomotive. It is a very large locomotive measuring 18 inches long and seven inches tall! That is just the size of the locomotive without the tender. Even considering how large this locomotive is, I still cannot focus on anything on this model when it is in my hands.  I can focus just fine (on most days) when the model is at greater distances. It is just close-up focusing that is a problem. Although, some days I cannot focus on anything... near or far... due to complications of Systemic Mastocytosis.  Honestly, I'm not sure if it is my medications which hamper my vision to this extent or if it is the disease or a combination of both. Although, my ophthalmologist has found signs of some retinal problems, my emergency med

Sometimes... you make a stupid mistake and then it somehow snowballs into a series of mistakes.  Sometimes... these mistakes are really nothing worth mentioning in the big scheme of things and sometimes they are pretty significant mistakes. Right now, I am paying the price for a pretty significant mistake which snowballed into a series of mistakes. When Sheila and I were getting ready for bed last night, I quickly realized that I had missed my dinnertime dose of medications. This alone is serious enough to cause anaphylaxis and a myriad of additional debilitating, nauseating, disgusting and dangerous symptoms. On the positive side, my health hadn't crashed yet as it usually does when I make this mistake so this was good news. (...probably because of the additional medications I took over the weekend so we could safely travel to Burlington for a short cruise...) This means I had time to correct this stupid yet potentially dangerous mistake.  I took out my nighttime dose of medi

We had some hazy but rather nice weather yesterday so we decided to head to Burlington and Lake Champlain for a short afternoon cruise on the "Spirit of Ethan Allen". We headed northward with Sheila's parents for an afternoon in Vermont's little quaint city on the lake. We always enjoy an afternoon roaming around Burlington... hopping from bar to restaurant to bar... so it was nice to get to do some of the same this weekend. We happened to be first in line to board the boat so this allowed us to get a prime table. The sun was blazingly hot while we were standing in line so we opted for choosing a table at the stern of the top level of the boat which was under cover. It turned out to be an exceptionally wise choice! We had a few drinks on board and then walked up toward Church Street after the cruise. The heat and humidity were enough to prompt me to request a table under cover rather than out on Church Street in the sun. Usually, everyone wants to sit ou

My health has been pretty lousy for the past few days but, today, it declined to the lowest of lows.  I awoke exhausted this morning and that is never a good sign of a "good" day. Of course, as I've mentioned many times before, a "good" day for me with my illnesses and spinal injuries is nothing even close to a healthy person's good day. For me, a "good" day means tolerable health... just minimal to average pain... but having enough energy to accomplish something. The past few days have been less than "good". So, I awoke exhausted... that should have been a clear sign of the day that was ahead of me. I didn't see this sign, however, and just tried to muddle through my fatigue. By the time lunchtime arrived, I realized that I wasn't just exhausted... my thoughts were muddled... and my mood was less than socially acceptable. This was the second sign that my health needed attention and, again, I didn't pay much att

Sheila and I had a nice weekend and actually managed to get out of the house again. We said goodbye to a friend on Saturday... had a few drinks and some food... but my health crashed quite quickly near the end of our socializing. I spent the following 24 hours sick as a dog begging for some relief. For the most part, I have a fairly good handle on balancing my health with a lot of medications. When my health gets really poor, however, there is nothing that can be done but to ride it out and hope it passes quickly. Even though I say I have a fairly good handle on balancing my health, this still happens weekly but which symptoms appear seems to be quite random and experiencing this weekly is far better than daily! So, Sunday was a down day for me. It was pouring rain outside, windy, with thunderstorms all day so I knew I would be staying indoors anyway. I decided to take advantage of being stuck indoors and worked on some of my model railroad locomotives.   I pulled out some tool

I shouldn't complain since my health does so poorly in warmer environments but the weather lately has been absolutely ridiculous! I was so cold through the night last night that I could not sleep. My bones and joints ached so badly that sleeping was impossible... I was shivering... and yet, I was fully clothed and we had a blanket covering us!  It is mid-July... we should be complaining about the heat! Actually, this is the only month when it is normal to have temperatures approaching triple digits or in triple digits. By late August, the weather is usually cool enough that you can't help but be reminded that snow will be falling soon.  So, what I'm saying is that mid-July is the peak of our summer as far as temperature goes... we usually have air conditioners in as many windows as possible to try to keep cool... and that peak usually only lasts for about two weeks. Instead, lately, I've wanted to fire up that furnace again. This morning I was expecting to awake t

Over the past few nights, I've been collecting all the video clips I shot while we were at the lake house by putting them in a single folder on my desktop computer. After seeing the number of video clips in this folder, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by the amount of video I have... Apparently, I shot 10.4 gb's of high definition video... comprised of 60 video clips... with a total running time of almost 90 minutes. That is a lot of video!   (In addition to the 2000 or so photos I shot!) Although I shot most of this video myself, Sheila shot a few minutes of these video clips and Sheila's brother, Doug, also contributed a few video clips so I didn't actually shoot 90 minutes of video all by myself. My plan is to cut and splice all these clips into one cohesive video that is no longer than 8-10 minutes. I honestly have no clue how I am going to do that but I need to try.  I actually had some ideas in my head as well as on paper before we even arrived at the lak

Here is part two about last night's dessert with a series of photos of Lukey...   "Hmmm... not bad..." "Ooooo... that's cold on the teeth..." "Ut - ohh..." "Brain-freeze!" "Hey Gee... ...what... did you... put... in this dessert... anyway?"  Before anyone thinks we may have spiked the dessert, we didn't... I simply caught Lukey in mid-blink...  It does look like he is a bit loopy though! As always, it was a fun night with the grandchildren!

The kids came over for dinner last night... and they thought the name of our dinner was a bit amusing... shish-ka-bob . Of course, any name with "Bob" in it is hilarious to Lukey! Since learning the word "buoy" at the lake and seeing plenty of buoys, he's been chanting "bob-bob-buoy". (Howard Stern would find this amusing!) After dinner, the kids had a little dessert and I shot some photos. For this post, here is a series of photos of Kenzie... (Not to worry... photos of Lukey will follow in the next blog post.) "I'm not too sure about this gooey stuff..." "...I guess this isn't too bad..." "Hey, Gee... I'm a'tellin ya... it needs some M&M's..." "Now we're talking..." a little of this one... a little of that one... "Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... soooo goooood..."

It is a beautiful and cool morning which is ideal for my health. I quickly ventured outside to take advantage of the cooler weather to tackle mowing the lawn.  I managed to get most of the weed-whacking accomplished before feeling a bit weak... I came inside to get a drink and see what happens with this weakness.  Before long, I felt famished... so I made some food... had more to drink... I feel a bit better but I still don't feel "right". I'm still struggling with breathing problems... the usual vision issues... the usual spinal pain... but, this weakness thing is a serious sign of impending anaphylaxis... again.  Common sense is telling me I need to take some emergency medications... head to the couch... and call it a day. So... 10am... and my day is done.  Maybe I'll feel a bit better later...